RADRENALINE

Killed in my own war zone.

2012-02-14T21:01:00.001+08:00

It's 8 pm. and I was wondering what to wear tomorrow. So I walked to my wardrobe and opened the doors and something happened! no, not a gooey monster came out instead a huge wave of clothes vomited onto me. And I died. (lol if this happened I felt sort of thankful because I don't have to clean up the mess.

Well what happened was my fault. During the cleaning up session I decided to divide the clothes into to groups (like the food pyramid only this one with two floors). One is for me and the other group to be thrown (omg yaya you are so tak ikhlas use proper words please,) given out to charity.

After 10 minutes I started to feel the thumping in my head. omg headache. All the emotions started to mix up. Sometimes I went kneeling and wailing while holding a certain blouse, or top or pants. Sometimes I complained too much. It went like this " what the hell was I thinking " (gesturing towards my OWN colourful shirt), then it went "why did I waste my money for these! ", "It's not even my size how in the world it got in here", "I never wore these??", "when did I get this one?", "urgh I shouldn't have listened to her advice (a friend's) to buy this top!", "owh how lovely I could not let this top lost in the sea of clothes again so I can wear it next week!".

Insane right. I don't need any advice I just need my own rehab of stopping myself from shopping in a while and get a magic wand to make the unwanted clothes disappear. Right away.

Sick things/dumb things that i love.

2011-12-31T00:40:00.002+08:00

Where do you wanna go right now?

Greece.

Why?

Beautiful sea view with enchanting small buildings. Google Santorini.

What natural thing you love most on earth?

Clouds

What colours make you feel so free and peaceful?

Turquoise and baby blue.

Name one habit you can think of right now?

Eating chocolate before sleep

Do you watch travel channels?

yupp

What kind of food do you prefer from those channels you watched?

Middle east food.

Name one?

I am crazy with hummus. i wanna eat it with toast, and everything.

What thing are you gonna do when you are alone in your room without any gadgets just your childhood stuff?

painting, go artsy!

Think of a friend, what are you gonna do with him/her to end 2011?

Him, used to be a close pal, to have a longggg chat together. I'll do the talking the most, he'll listen. xD

Teh Tarik mediocrity

2011-12-28T20:28:00.001+08:00

If macha can make teh tarik like this

killing time

2011-12-26T23:27:00.003+08:00

Spell your name with songs.

N - Naive-Lily Allen

U - Unbreakable -Michael Jackson

R - Raise your rifles- Autopilot off

U - Under cover of darkness -The Strokes

L - Labyrinth -Alesana

Name: Nurul

Nickname: Yaya

Hair Color: Dark brown

Zodiac Sign: Ariessss

The shoes you wore today: Brogues

Your weaknesses: a confused personnnnn~

Your fear(s): snakes urghh

Your perfect pizza: tomatoes and cheeese

Goal you’d like to achieve: find a tall, big boyfriend who's also not selfish and reliable~

Your bedtime? whenever i wish

Most missed memory? with people i care

This Or That…

Pepsi or Coke? neither (don't like gassy drinks)

McDonald’s or Burger King: Fatnesssss

Adidas or Nike: Adidasssss

Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Lipton

Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate

Cappuccino or coffee: Teh Tarik

Do You…

Smoke: nay

Curse: when annoyed

Sing: All da toime

Dance: Na

Take a shower everyday: lol

Have a crush: AS stilllllllllllll (whyyy)

Do you think you’ve been in love?: heh

Want to get married: Yeah

Get along with your parents: yeap

In the past month…

Gone to the mall: Yezzzzzzzzza

Eaten Sushi: Mmmmmmmmmmmmm

Been on stage: yepppps

Gone skating: twice

Made homemade cookies: yepp

Gone Skinny dipping: Nooooz

Ever…

Flashed anyone: HAHA nah mate

Age you hope to get married: 27+

Numbers of Children: 2

Describe your Dream Wedding: Simple

What country would you most like to visit? Greeeeeece!

In the opposite sex..

BEST eye color? anything

BEST hair color? Whatever suits em

Short hair or long hair? Preferably short

Height: Taller than me duh

Number of people I could trust with my life: A few

Number of CDs that I own: countless

Number of tattoos: None

Number of piercings: 6 all on ears 1 nose

Personal Quiz

Who were you with yesterday? mum

What woke you up this morning? our gardener talking outside near my bedroom

Where are you? Home

Is tomorrow going to be a good day? Doubt it

THE PAST

What’s on your mind RIGHT NOW? unicorns xD

THE FUTURE

What kind of home would you like? big

What do you want to be when you grow up? engineer preferably automotive

Where do you see yourself in 5 years? in an Italian vehicle factory workin

IN GENERAL

Do you like candy necklaces? Yus cute

When was the last time you fell over or ran into something? tumbled down the stairs (how careless)

Do you listen to music every day? YESS

What was the last thing you ate? tandoori and teh tarik (nak ckp jugak)

Are you a fast typer? LOL idk

Are you listening to music right now? Ya

How long ’till your birthday? 4 months woop two to da two!!

When were you the saddest in your whole life? when daddy got into his major surgery due to heart attack

What time is it? 11.56

Do you use ebay to buy or sell? Na

Who makes you mad? No one really

Have you ever heard a song written about you? YEAH BAHAHAGAAH

Something you want to happen in 2011? Theres only 4 days left =[ SOMETHING GOOD PLZZZZZZZ

Honestly, do you miss 2007? Hell yeah

HONESTY SECTION

1. Honestly, what color is your underwear? Cbf

2. Honestly, whats on your mind? when am i gonna hit the sack huh

3. Honestly, what are you doing right now? -

6. Honestly, have you done something bad today? nup

8. Honestly, who is the last person you talked to on the phone? my babe! baiyah

OMG GET ME THESE!!!!!!!!!

2011-12-21T19:03:00.002+08:00

A guy and his thumb rule

2011-12-21T18:31:00.004+08:00

Girl, are you eyeing the "one-of-a-kind" guy much? well let see what rule he plays before you get your pretty self to him. come, come.

Some guys actually already have a vague sense of the rough concept of this rule, albeit subconsciously and, well, pretty much the wrong way round. I’ll tell you what I mean.

You’ve probably heard the old adage “treat ‘em mean, keep ‘em keen”, right?

Well lots of guys use this as a rule of thumb when they’re out hoping to attract women. They figure that by appearing aloof and unattainable they boost their val

ue in the minds of women and make themselves more valuable and attractive. Unfortunately, things don’t work like that in real life. The only way a guy can play hard to get and still attract women is if he’s massively good-looking or otherwise physically rare – that might hold the interest of girls for a while longer than usual, but only

because they’re silently hoping the guy will turn out to be charismatic and engaging.

Remember, women prefer charismatic men over quiet, brooding guys because the charismatic guys are the ones who are going to make the girls feel wanted, appreciated, sexy and valued. When women say they like “strong, silent types” (which is my interest) they really mean that they like good-looking men who hold back their charisma and

personality until they’re in a one-on-one situation with a girl – which, of course, is hugely appealing in the fantasy world of a girl’s mind. (verrry appealing).

So that's what happened to some girls. To be attracted to this kind of guy who is hard to get. Let's just not waste your time to figure out ways to get his attention if he holds back too much. like too much.

Just don't be dumb and say to his face:

not classy..

2011-12-02T19:23:00.001+08:00

“What” and “If” are two words as non-threatening as words can be. But put them together side-by-side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life; What if? What if? What if? If what you felt then was true love, then it’s never too late. If it was true then, why wouldn’t it be true now? You need only the courage to follow your heart.”

—	Letters To Juliet

Gonna wear!

2011-12-01T23:30:00.000+08:00

It's friday friday

2011-12-01T23:28:00.001+08:00

.

2011-11-30T00:33:00.000+08:00

fudge! puasla hati kau.

me and my baby someday xD

2011-11-29T23:17:00.001+08:00

What of itttt

2011-11-29T22:34:00.004+08:00

What were you doing at 8am this morning?

driving to work, listening to Pagi Rock Crew

What were you doing 30 minutes ago?

scrolling down my dash

What are you listening to?

coldplay

What color shirt are you wearing?

blue

What is the most common name you are called other than your given name?

yaya

The last movie you watched?

waiting for forever

What would you do if you found out the person you like was in a relationship?

laugh my ass off

Do you smoke?

never

Will tomorrow be a good day?

doubt it

Do you have a reason to smile right now?

nope

How are you feeling?

very tired

Is there something you’re not looking forward to?

this week ugh

How’s life going?

Lol so shit

Are you excited about anything?

pay check day

Has anyone made you feel like crap lately?

hell yeah

How can people tell if you’re in a bad mood?

i dont talk

Have you ever worked in a food place?

yeapo

Is there someone that always makes you happy whenever you see them/talk to them?

lmao yeah

If you are being extremely quiet what does that mean?

tired, pissed off, annoyed

Will you be up before 7 am tomorrow?

i wish i cld say noooooooooooo

Do you prefer to call or text?

depends

Will you talk to someone on the phone tonight?

nupppppppppp

Are you thinking about anyone?

unfortunately yes

Who is your last missed call?

ceebs checking

What does your last text say?

’ i got kidnapped’ LOL

If you could go back in time and change things, would you?

YES

What do you currently hear at the moment?

charmer - kings of leon

Are you easily scared by horror movies?

nawt reallllllllly

Does someone like you right now?

as far as i concern nah

Have you ever worn the opposite sex’s clothing?

yep

Are you afraid others will judge you from reading some of your answers?

LOL nah

Do you miss someone?

l0l

When did you last talk to your number 1?

whos my number 1 ..

Do you speak more than 6 languages?

LOL god damn i wish!

Who else is in the room with you?

ma brothur

How do you feel about your hair?

wish it was thicker =[

Do you drink coffee?

yum

When is your birthday?

april 17th!

Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?

of course

Do you eat breakfast daily?

nope

What was the last thing you drank?

milky coffee

When was the last time you threw up?

can't remember

Would you consider your parents to be strict?

mm in betweeen

Have you ever phoned a sex hot line?

LMAO HELL NA

When was the last time you talked to a sibling?

like 2 mins ago

How old do you look?

18 apparently =[

Last thing you ate?

fried chicken and grapes!

What gets on your nerves?

slow as replies, people that sniff a lot LOL

How do you make your money?

daddyo heh and work

What’s your worst habit?

probly staying up late then regretting it in the mawnin

Do you hate being home alone?

nah luvz it

How many people do you currently have feelings for?

uno?

If the person you have feelings for started smoking, What would you do?

What’s something you really want right now, be honest?

iphone 4s and holidays!!

Ever had a near death experience?

yeah HAHA

Name someone with the same birthday as you?

jennifer garner

Honestly, if you could go back 1 month and change something would you?

hell yes

Are you listening to music right now?

yessssssssir

When’s the last time you had a late night phone conversation?

last decade

Do you want to see someone this very minute?

wouldnt mind

Are you a forgiving person?

yeap

Describe how you feel about your life in the past month using one word:

dope..lol

Last person you saw other than your family?

my boss

Will tomorrow be better than today?

guessso!

Name a time you thought you were going to die?

none

Which of your friends lives closest to you?

anis and ayie

When was the last time somebody annoyed you?

probly today lol

Next vacation you’re going on?

no clue =[

Ever sneak out the house?

never tnx to alarm sys

Last thing you purchased?

jackfruit

Do you ever lie about your age?

yeah LMAO

Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?

hahahahahhahahahahahahaharr

What do you miss most about your past?

everything :(

If someone likes you would you want them to tell you?

why nawt

Name something great that happened today?

fam

Do you have any siblings?

a brother

Have you ever gone tanning?

im malaysian, already tanned and hot and sexy

Does your birthday come before April Fool’s Day?

apparently afta

Were you happier 6 months ago, or now?

ermm

Where do you go when you want to be alone?

my room

Do you get along with your parents?

very much

Do you believe that what comes around goes around?

meh

What is your favorite fruit?

cherries and kiwi

Ever felt like you hit rock bottom?

mhm

What’s your favorite season?

autumn

Do you believe that there are certain circumstances where cheating is okay?

no way

Can you honestly say that things are running smoothly for you?

nope!

Are promises important to you?

yeahp

Will you talk to the person you like tonight?

- (how i wish he wld)

made myself this before sleep..

2011-11-29T22:26:00.003+08:00

i don't care as long it tastes gooood

No true. I am not lying.

2011-11-29T20:23:00.002+08:00

Damn. Pals, do i need to wait? (it's been a looooooong decade i have waited) or do i need to start again? or do i need to just tell the truth that "i like him like hell" or do i need to just let it go? what do i do? every day i keep thinking about him! erghhhh. yea him. tall tall. him lah. him!

Btw, things that stopped me to tell the truth are, everytime i was the one who started it, then we kept completely quiet to each other (actually i was hoping he wld at least remember to hit-me-baby-one-more-time, then on my mind he has somebody else that's more special than me (well actually i wanted to know as fast as possible whether he has someone else so i can jump off the story -well not the building of course).

So let's move on to other story because i don't want to stay sorrowful to things that i can impossible get.

I think i need to watch more Australian dramas, movies and also listen to Aussie's music per se. As i was crawling in the dark when i encountered a pure Aussie customer. He said his name is Millar with Ayyye and i heard it as " I " alphabet instead of " A ". Well i am not ashamed to tell in my blog that i was kind of blinking too much as he spoke to me cuz i merely understand manglish better than aussinglish. And he pronounced Kia as Keyya. So if i were to list the words he said it might take a long time. Now let's find Austrailian Moowvie mite (mate)!

now it's a trend.

2011-11-25T22:38:00.001+08:00

influence: nicki minaj

short story long.

2011-11-25T22:25:00.002+08:00

Yay. tomorrow is half day. but there's gonna be a long queue of cars in the morning til noon that makes me kardashian ass desperate to sit.

Shit looks even better than:

2011-11-25T20:04:00.002+08:00

Girls who smoke cigarettes especially the one who makes face like "fuck you all the people who loathe me, so what?".

Bow tie for girl?

2011-11-24T23:35:00.004+08:00

absolutely. bow tie is the new necklace. play it around with short plated skirt or shorts. not just tux. well come on, mix and match.

Steps to laze yourself like a real girl over the weekend

2011-11-24T22:57:00.010+08:00

Instructions:

wear your scarf like a turban.

Wear oversize pullover like this;

Wear a dream catcher like necklace like this;

Grab a sling bag,

Go get macaroons with your tweeps.

Believe me you will end up looking like this if you follow the instructions;

Oh no

2011-11-24T20:15:00.003+08:00

abbra cadabbra turn her into cake!!

bazingga!!!

Whoopeedo

2011-11-24T19:48:00.006+08:00

This is the movie I selected after a long day at work.

So ever wonder why I chose this movie. Pffft no reason.

Trends I'm Ready to See Die

2011-11-24T19:46:00.001+08:00

Inspired by the horrid outfits girls wear today and a full gallon of haterade, I am ready to share :)

1. Ladies, for the last TIME, leggings are NOT pants
2. If you own hip-hugging jeans circa 2000, please donate them or refurbish in some fashion. Don't pack them up, they're not coming back.
3. Hipster thick frames are cute. Popping out the lenses on your 3D glasses and propping them on your face? Not so much.
4. High-Heeled Hunting/Timberland style boots
5. Lack of effort. Look presentable, not like you were partying all night. It doesn't look cute in class at 9am.
6. Plaid mini skirts. Unless layered in L.A.M.B. fashion, this doesn't work.
7. Clogs. Never an endorser.
8. Thin Eyebrows. I'm definitely not impressed by super thick eyebrows I've seen on the runways, but it's better than thin brows.
9. Women with barrettes in their hair. WHY?
10. Disintegrating rain boots worn with knee socks.

That is all for now. Let my positivity wash over you.
** If this is seen as an excessively negative post or offends anyone, my apologies. Just trying to have a little fun :)

This is me

2011-11-23T20:43:00.000+08:00

check this interesting site; http://www.blab-world.com/

Ted and mom were right.

2011-11-23T19:51:00.005+08:00

we gotta wait for the real thing. no matter how tough it gets.- Ted Mosby

It was the last episode of HIMYM (How I met Your Mother). You gotta watch it to know what it really means.

Oh well, am not gonna blab about who i have feeling with and so on so on because it just makes me think more and sigh more.

Yea i have mentioned before that i was gonna work at some place to gain different experience. By saying "dif-fer-rent" means not from Zara, not from Topshop, not from Miss Selfridges (I insanely love the shop that i wanna marry it) , not with Jaspal. (which i have rejected all of their offers to be exact (well yea i am bragging so what, hah).

But you will erase your thought of me bragging when you hear this: i , a girl, who loves dresses and arts, and Charlize Theron and Gossip Girl maniac am working as a Service Advisor at Malaysia's biggest local car company (Naza Kia), well to be exact a service center. Yes all the hunks are the mechanics la babe. Or mostly the customers are chinese and mat salleh (or to be exact, Caucasians) there u go a little brag there. (blog is meant to brag, duh)

Btw it is nothing really to bossoms here (bossoms is my word of saying *meninggi diri or PROUD as a proud lady usually walk with bossoms up, heh)

You are wrong if you say Service Advisor is a piece of tiger shit (tiger sbb i semangat malaysia weh smpai shit pon nk tiger, better than pig's)

Berapa kali aku kena maki weh dengan senior. You walk fast, work fast, do fast "err do what eh?". All maw fast ka, I shit cannot fast ma. Omg yaya please use appropriate words.

Basically you need to know how to entertain customers (not like Christina Aguilera in Burlesque meh) talk to them ask about the car problems, (don't talk to the car, people will call u crazy). Then tell them stuff we gonna do with their car (not transform them to Megatron of course). ie, chnage the engine oil, semi synthetic or full. And all the stuff about cars. Then get them to discuss about the spare parts needed and pricing details. All of them are a guy's job. Exactly. And i am pretending or Tinsletown acting like "Hello, i am Richard Hammond, I am the king of the art of cars" heh.

And yes i was startled and confused when the guys in the department ask "do you have STM?"

At first i took long to answer as i thought "SPM ke? STP ke? STPM ke? hapekepejadaharam tuh?" and a guy said "Sijil Tahan Maki".

ohhhh. i said no. and please give me one. please. because not certain but most customers want their car to be done fast (semua nak fast pehal weh). and if they get more than they expected they become "lembu gila". lol.

what?

hello if u get more than u expected of course u will be happy right. no. well actually sometimes they expected their car is healthy and needs only a panadol but when we put on our scrubs and dig in we found "this fella needs more than a new heart".

so in the bill, we put great amounts of brand spanking new parts and spanking price too. You know what i mean. so the customers (except Paris hilton rich) would be furious.

Btw, there was a customer who is an entrepreneur owns an IT Communication company gave me his card. He studied Mechanical Engineering in London and did his Masters in Korea. He's awesome. I want to be awesome like him not Barney Stinson.

Ok i will continue writing as my days become more interesting on meeting new people. Its fun tho. See you guys on the next write.

A little joke out of it.

2011-11-19T22:50:00.003+08:00

This is my last shot. If he still acts like "nay, she ain't allright, i cld meet one hot sexier and nicer girl later" , i am gonna drag my kardashian ass away from you. i don't know what nicer girl you wld meet afterward. (tried so hard to be nice). urghh why dont you make things simpler. just send me a text "hai how r u, wuts going on?" so simple. except for if you really hate me for no reason. question marks&spencer. oh look thot of buying u expensive presents but the thought flew away. (think of one box with wings on it flapping flapping it's wings going away) and i do the byebyebye (waving towards $anta)

Bonus:

im telling you a little secret, my hints i already used, yea i know it's so lame that's why it didn't work, you fool!.

1) i asked him for pick up lines (and he did answer me) urghh

2) i told him that a friend of him (who's my friend too)'s girl friend should know I like "someone" I referred to him urghhh

3)i asked him whether he's okay okay okay ( and finally out of the bluest blue bluer than a bruise) he stomped, "why u asked me too much of "r u okay i am sick of it".

4)i was being concern ( and i thot he considered as he said thanks for ur concern) but aku je yg perasan bodoh betol. *translation: i smiled like a pig when he said that =='

5) i told him i stalked ur profile (just for fun) yea i know i shouldnt do that.

(but how come you still don't get it when the person told u tat) urghhhh urghh

=) done. dont try these ^ at home or you will get yourself tucked in ur bed thinking of your crush all night looooooong. cuckoooocuckooo (owl sound) an owl looking at the moon and missing it. get it? sighhs while he's out there playing games chilling having fun with friends and making a fool of you (i guess). harhar la.

Pfft dull blog whatever. to abbv A.S

2011-11-19T22:19:00.002+08:00

Don't blame me. I have tried. Gave the shot. I started first. It went well. Texted so much. Then suddenly the season changed. What steps i should possibly take? i think no more. I am tired of being the first to start. Yup conversations will go on. But it needs me to open the curtain. And he does the curtain call. I don't know why i like you so much. because u r tall? that scored the list but not the main reason. i like the story. It's like every time problems were told i wanted to hear more. i was psyched. u seeked for my advice but question yourself have u ever asked about my life? u r too different. but sigh why do i still like you. the world is unfair. there are so many chances to get my mind away from u. but u are there. still. u are lucky. too little u know about me. and never asked abt myself. my life. mom was right (i told her too much abt u because u ignored me too long). i should like you. you are a nice man. but u never showed how nice of u to me. (u never try hard) i missed for someone (even u think u r just a friend) why not drop buy every now and then like i did. sorry i kept quiet for a while just to get u off my station but see i was too stubborn eager to ask whether u are enjoying your life. stupid me if u just give me cold shoulders~~ (yup because i don't do anything wrong)

1.11.2011

2011-10-06T14:45:00.004+08:00

Remember the date. Yes. The date I will start my new adventure and share it in my blog. No more dull blog anymore!

this blog is under construction

2011-09-20T12:23:00.001+08:00

Self-powered vehichle Race Day presentation

"perfect day", i designed my own poster and so happy with that!

2011-09-20T12:16:00.001+08:00

me in the middle in pink Topshop top on raya night at uitm.

tweet me more.

2011-09-18T01:46:00.001+08:00

follow me on twitter for recent updates.

http://twitter.com/#!/nuruljaedin

im just lazy to blog nowadays. oh well.

just dropping by. see ya.

2011-06-05T14:49:00.001+08:00

“You’re amazing and I have nothing to offer you, but I’m involved now. You jump, I jump, remember? I can’t turn away without knowing you’re going to be alright.”

—

Titanic

we live our life for some reason

2011-06-05T14:05:00.002+08:00

2011-06-04T23:55:00.002+08:00

SHE IS SUCH AN IDIOT.

SHE'S NEITHER A FRIEND NOR SOMEONE SPECIAL.

SHE IS SOMEWHERE IN THE MIDDLE.

DON'T YOU KNOW SOMEWHERE IN THE MIDDLE NEVER EXISTS?

DON'T YOU REALIZE THE MIDDLE IS A DEAD END?

DON'T YOU REALIZE THAT YOU HAVE TAKEN AWAY HER FEELINGS AND KEEP IT SOMEWHERE SHE DOESN'T KNOW. NEITHER DO YOU?

YOU NEVER KNOW WHO CRIES HERSELF TO SLEEP.

YOU NEVER KNOW HOW LOST SHE FEELS.

YOU SAID YOU COULD GUIDE AND HELP BUT IT NEVER HAPPENS.

YOU MAKE HER HAPPY BUT IT LASTS FOR A MOMENT THEN IT COMES BACK AS A GUILT.

SHE IS WEAK SHE IS STUPID AND GUESS WHAT YOU PLAY IT WELL.

REMEMBER SHE COULDN'T FIND HER WAY OUT NOT UNTIL SOMETHING IS FIGURED OUT.

2011-06-04T20:12:00.005+08:00

MEET THE TOO COOL FOR SCHOOL KIDS.

It's never wrong to steal your boy's look.

2011-06-04T19:11:00.004+08:00

Okay, that one below the "blackest outfit" poem, song or whatsoever you are calling it, was made up by me for fun. But I was trying to flash out what a couple should wear instead of lame "COUPLE T-SHIRTS"...Same color Same horizontal stripes Same number at sides Oh lame Oh lame. So here are another one.

OH BOOS SHOULD WEAR THESE.

2011-06-04T19:09:00.005+08:00

Sugar you are so fly, so I am checking you out every time you look away.

Notice I am trying to look like candy,

even in the blackest outfit.

But still nothing is matter, oh sweetie pie.

In ma leopard pajamas and big specs went ba-na-na-nas!

2011-06-04T14:55:00.001+08:00

okay this is my rent house's room. where i only have floor table and have to sit on the carpet. konichiwa to me.

So LOVE yourself being silly.

2011-06-04T11:46:00.001+08:00

Believe me, Ashton is right.

A guy just has too many SERIOUS QUESTIONS.

2011-06-04T11:29:00.007+08:00

"I have a SERIOUS question for you, Zoe"

"Did you buy that dress to wear for me tonight?"

.......she paused (seriously please don't answer his question!!)

"I would never tell"

(.....good girl!!!)

Totally MY LOOK.

2011-06-04T11:22:00.004+08:00

Mah-jor look stealer. But looks better.

Only My Paper bag isnt as BIG as Hers.

2011-06-04T11:03:00.003+08:00

BUT still TOPSHOP is our common fav!

You Must Have These in Wardrobe.

2011-06-04T09:29:00.003+08:00

LOOK ALIKE STATEMENT SHOESSS!! this is ba-na-na-nas.

Body & Hair alert!

2011-06-04T00:23:00.003+08:00

WANT a body like this and hair length like this. And would care for highlights?

The thing that beats.

2011-06-04T00:00:00.001+08:00

Cause I’m fearful of heights and you take me higher. What came with you was a view to admire. I’ve always been the kind to contemplate, but you like the kind that don’t hesitate. So excuse me while I fall for you.

Who doesn't love sundae on Sunday.

2011-04-03T13:57:00.001+08:00

I'm loving it. Today is 119th Anniversary of the First Documented Ice-Cream Sundae. Yum.

Smackable a$$ to rock the dre$$.

2011-03-29T01:29:00.005+08:00

Spent 4 hours in the gym.

The instructor was so nice and friendly that I forgot I worked the cross trainer like almost an hour and the half, listening to him babbling about diets, cardio, flabby arms, flabby abs blah blah blah.

But every single thing he said were useful.

I like the diet part, well obviously NOT the Jennifer Anniston's cabbage soup diet, NOT Beyonce's honey and cinnamon diet, NOT the Brangelina's liquid diet.

But the real diet! That gives you energy throughout the day and NOT a BRAIN DRAIN one!

1) Like great great grandma, great grandma, grandma and mama say, BREAKFAST is the most important one to start a day. (Avoids you feeling cranky!).

-Oatmeal

Oatmeal helps to suck some percentage of unused fat and oil in your body you made yesterday. It helps to suck in toxin too. So you will feel energetic for a kick-start.

2)Lunch (well i used to love pretending I was Serena Van der Woodsen to have BRUNCH with the socialites) but no BRUNCH.

-Rice

Rice (who says rice should be substituted with bread) ekk wrong. Rice gives energy and avoids you feeling starving at the end of the day. Rice digests slowly. If you eat Nasi Kandar (Indian style with plain rice, curry, curry,curry, chicken, veggies) obviously a complete meal. But If you eat that, please don't ask for the gravy. Chicken (YES!) but not drumstick or wings, choose chest(whatever you call it) or other than both>

3) Take dinner before 7 pm. That's what chinese always do. It's healthy!

So do I need to throw all the Chocolates my dad bought from the airport?

The answer is NO.

If you usually eat ONE bar of choc, try to make it quarter.

That's what I can summarize from the diet part. I've got a lot to say but it's 2 in the morning and it is not healthy to stay up. My body aches from the rowing and cycling (psst my ass aches the most) but it's good =p. SO ttyl.

SHUTUP! SHUT UP!

2011-03-27T15:26:00.000+08:00

It is hard to fight an enemy that resides in your head.

I LOVE HER

2011-03-27T01:08:00.001+08:00

IN EVERY WAY.....

Tis is wrong.

2011-03-26T23:35:00.004+08:00

Exclamation mark. I did answer the questions on Seventeen.com about Prom Dress Quiz with all my heart. No fibbing. No cheating. It's just all about me, being shy sometimes but could be confident at times, love fun and goofy guy, like Katy Perry so much no matter what her style is, like soft curls, fondue. Obviously all about me but not the result?! the dress?!

So bold and ruffles?!

It says you're fun and flirty, and need a dress that shows off your outgoing personality and blah blah blah. And this part I hate; it makes plenty of heads turn- especially your date's?

I don't need one-duh.

Hello stick to being classic and classy.

2011-03-22T21:07:00.007+08:00

I randomly picked a picture out of my folder and found this and something reminded me. My born-day (I am trying to make it sound like Gaga's-born-this-way but unfortunately it doesnt sound anything like it). Anyway, this was my 20th birthday which was last year. So, what's going to happen this year? 2011 I'm going 21! (It is eas

y to guess my age pick the first digit and the last digit of every year then you get it right!)

So the question is, does my birthday apparently fall on the same date as the PreGraduation Night? so does my wish to eat a bunch of macaroons and slice of velvet cakes and chilli's gargantuan burger on my very birthday eventually poof? yea maybe..I'm going to the PG night for one particular reason: My best friends aka sisters. Just for them. So from now on OPERATION GET-THE-DRESS is on babes get your guns ready like Gaga (not on your bras!).

Since we are too busy with our automotives engineeri

ng reports and assignments we have no time for window

shopping just yet. So I do a little screen shopping here.

The theme is simple; Glamorous. (try spell it like Fergie, G-L-A-M-O-R-O-U-S yeah)

obviously don't try this at PG,

(photo of Alex Noble AW11)

don't try to be a mummy bride who's waiting for

Tutankhamun

or better without the creepy mask

photos from http://miriamhakedosha.blogspot.com

The picture tells me not to stare at it. (I'm trying to find something Brad Pitt in it but fails -.-')

Anyway, back to fashion, oh why do I always stop at starbucks, then Borders, then DVD store then only I get back on the road -.-').

So if it's not mummy bride, should I dress myself like Barbie who's walking out of the court after divorcing Ken.(courtesy Mathew Willamson)

or an office warrior who is always ready if it's either going to be World War III or War with the Boss)courtesy Chanel.

or dress and pose sweetly like these who..no..ladies=) (I have no big tits like Katy Perry, no skin like the vonvon lady (forgot her name) no err like Allen.

neither of them. Btw lads, I haven't decide yet. So help me?

AT

2011-03-22T20:10:00.006+08:00

Hello girls, boys, gays, lesbos, biebians (lol!), trans and monsters!

Over a decade I've been viewing about designer clothes..designer clothes...designer clothes (make em sound like yadda,yadda,yadda) Well, I am not gonna shout 'heck I'm bored!' but 'heck I'm enthusiastic!'.

Why, let me show you,(I mean like in my engineering class 'demonstrating' is a better way of understanding than 'saying' but I am not 'demonstrating' it technically. Just to show my current obsession recently.

I HATE AN AMATEUR MODEL LIKE dotdotdot but ANNA TREVELYAN!

You don't know her? probably you're too obsess about yourself. (Having a Ha-ha syndrome in a sec)...well read 214 ma

gazine chaps!

Okay back to the ala 'demonstrating' activity:

Hey IT IS PELAYO! he hugs more than Anna..awww

(maybe you don't get the clear look of Anna here, prolly ya think she looks like purple haired Amy Winehouse, get a closer look)

she says this summer it's all about prints. well she's right. can i say more to a-more-educated-hippie girl style. Lets go back to 70's...in shrunken denims, micro-printed silk that make you wish you were rive gauche.

Issey Miyake

2011-03-17T22:26:00.004+08:00

Once upon a time I was bored and there was a piece of white paper lying dead near me. I picked it up and began to fold it into shapes. Maybe that was how it happened to the designer, Dai Fujiwara that inspired him so much. Anyway, the execution is always enthrallingly intimate. The show was indeed educational, well in the gentlest way. I may not wear those in the street but best for Amanda's costume party per se.

Now watch, origamis coming through....

Rag & Bone.

2011-03-17T00:17:00.003+08:00

Another fashion genius. Rag & Bone. Forget being to colorful and barbie type. Pull a boyish vibe. I won't comment. The clothes speak for themselves. Bear in mind 2011 is about keeping yourself real in a little boyish way.

Proenza Schouler

2011-03-17T00:06:00.003+08:00

Proenza Schouler. Genius!

Pre-Fall.

"There's something about a suit that feels cooler now than a miniskirt dripping in studs," Hernandez explained. A jersey double-face duffel coat teamed with high-waist glen plaid shorts and a washed oxford shirt had a collegiate, boyish vibe.

Say good-bye to last season's frills.

"Resort is about real clothes for our friends. Everybody went so far into fantasy that we lost the public. There's something about reality that feels fresh right now." That was Lazaro Hernandez and Jack McCollough's introduction to a tremendous collection that, despite its exotic influences—it was inspired by a vacation the duo took to India—felt utterly urban and, yes, completely in tune with the way cool girls are dressing so far this summer.

Michael Kors.

2011-03-16T23:38:00.004+08:00

Michael Kors for Fall 2011. This is what I meant! Let you girls' inner masculinity out despite your feminineness. Pull the look and feel the freedom of yourself. Cross out cross-dressers let the drags' jaw drop.

Matthew Williamson.

2011-03-16T23:19:00.003+08:00

Well, now lets move to the other rack, Matthew Williamson Collections for Fall 2011.

Now, I picked according to the criteria. Feminineness and a little Masculinity. I guess I have to make it a term. Also, neat and edgy look.

harem pants are just nice. don't forget your pumps or any statement shoes.

no masculinity but splashes of colors. Vivid colors are a no-no. Nude color open toe heels. mmm.

be classy in a workplace look. or more to a Serena van der Woodsen's look.

Helmut Lang.

2011-03-16T22:43:00.005+08:00

Check this out girls. Helmut Lang collections for Fall 2011 were so rad. With long flowing knit dress, just what I am looking for. The better to give downtown cool and extra dose of edge.

For me I like a clean but an edgy look. Not too catchy, just something smart, a little masculine blend with feminineness.

guys should wear these pants more often instead of boring baggy or skinny pants that aren't in anymore.

keep it simple but fashionable.

the fur-leather jacket adds the edginess with a long flowing dress. p/s: here in Asia with the warm weather, we could substitute the jacket with a sheer flower power blouse or a sheer nude color blouse. And match it with a leather belt.

afdagbuhshkwyd I'm covetous!

2011-03-16T14:29:00.004+08:00

READ THIS IF YOU FEEL UNLUCKY SOME OF THE TIME.

This world isn't fair at all. And I have realized that since I was in kindergarten there's never a thing that's fair for me.

Let me get it straight. Tak puas hati. Not just envious of someone getting more than me. But because she/he just got lucky or luckier than me.

Like when I put a dollar in a vending machine and nothing co

mes out. Then I put another dollar because I am so thirsty nothing in this world could take my breath away from the vending machine and STILL nothing

comes out. So basically I just put two dollars and gets nothing. Then I kick the vending machine continuously until my converse tear off (a metaphore cuz converse are well-tailored shoes of course). And after a few hour one can of Pepsi comes out instead of Coke which I deliberately chose an hour ago. BUT what the heck, I AM THIRSTY.

There, I wasted two dollars, my time of my life, my converse and end up with sore foot and a drink that I don't like. But at least I've got it after tons of ef

fort.

Unlike the poor me, there's another girl. Who is thirsty, checks her pocket and there is 50 cents left. So she tries her luck put in half the quid selects her favourite drink, okay let say mountain dew and 'tink tank tonk.......' there it is a cold, green can of thirst-quenching soda. She picks it up, open it with joy and gulp...gulp..gulp...

gulp...I watch her with a GULP. A massive GULPING.

So get it? I made up the whole story just to tell you this>

some people (like me) needs to make extra effort, do extra work in order to get one thing that we want.

And the other, just put up an effort with no super duper extra just a little or half of it or nothing and ding! get all the specialties mostly all that you ever dream of even a o.5 mark for your test paper.

I am very disappointed as a friend of mine told me she's got almost the full mark of the test while mine, I've got half of it. I do not give a damn if we both got it fair. But it

is because we have different lecturers and lecturers with different attitude. Hers help her to correct the whole answers which she left a negative sign and cost the full mark of a question.

While mine was incorrect for the whole answer because I left a negative sign. So that really messed up.

So FTW no?

Let me do the lucky person a story;

Luckily P graduated. Luckily she's got a job. Luckily she's got a raise. L

uckily she bought a big apartment half the price of my smaller apartment. Luckily all her grandchildren married most of the royal family members and the heirs of an empire. Luckily she passed away on National Day it's a public holiday so no grandchildren would have a chance to absent her memorial day (that isnt lucky). So generally it's just being lucky.

Well I am just saying but stand in my shoes and you sure know how joyful to be lucky.

I've got so unlucky that my bangs are out of places and I shouldn't cut it at the first place. Just got back from class and just got to know about the test mark.

Born Mugler way.

2011-03-16T11:41:00.006+08:00

I think I should feature "Born This Way" music for this static fashion show i put on. Anyway, like you know, Gaga had play the role as the new born for Mugler. Featured a never-before-heard track, "Government Hooker," by lady Gaga, the show's musical director. There were blend of Illuminati-born my way- sci-fi black magic going on here .

So can i say it was so rad!?

2011-03-14T00:38:00.001+08:00

this week resolution:

MUST ask for his number. goddammit.

2011-03-14T00:08:00.002+08:00

things that i have to avoid during my suck-in (this is just a term i use for fun & diet purpose not sucking the fat) mission:

eating beef/chicken more than once a week

eating rice more than once/twice a week

eating chocolate more than once a week

drinking ice drink

drinking sweetened drink except milo and milk

eating ice cream (thank god it's not one of my fav)

no no no starbucks (unfortunately, one venti is enuff to owe me 12 rounds of jog)

never to eat a popcorn (means no buying food for movie) & plus here in Malaysia there's no such thing as low calorie salted popcorn sold at the movie. only creamy fat buttered or caramel (that is sweet like my grandma's homemade cake)

so basically the all i cant eat plan turns to all i can eat but reduce it per week.

so to top it up i need to jog on monday, tuesday, friday & sunday (4 tiimes a week) according to my free schedule (yup, as a student not a superstar).

every jog needs at least 30 mins.

except on a threadmill i might do more than an hour.

so im not being unhealthy or anorexic. I eat and i work my body.

p/s: might have my eyes on the hoola hoop.(rethink rethink to buy it)

2011-03-13T23:53:00.002+08:00

malaysian actresses that i loathe their acting and i hope never see them in any malaysian favourite movies:

1. fasha sanda

2.liyana jasmay

3. sharifah amani

confession of an unbroken heart?

2011-01-22T11:23:00.002+08:00

Seems like someone just gave me hell when it comes to being in a relationship.

But not that relationship that I worries about but friendship!

Yes kau lah (a girl) the one aku confess that I like your handsome, kind sweet hearted bestfriend (a guy), and kau lah yang bagi aku advise to stay away from him (i mean do not approach in any weird way like saying (hey i like you) until the right time (she said he will like to be in a relationship time degree nanti).

were you kidding me?

I am not jealous nor mad sebab you people are lovers now despite being bestfriends but girl, you were suppose to tell me when I asked you if your heart have got anything to do with the guy. Goddammit. Susah ke nk terus terang so aku tak perlu lah nak malukan diri telling you and the other guy friend that I uber like him so much.

Anyway, I give up. You are much better than I am. You told me that he likes girls wearing hijab especially the lilit lilit one. And I don't or at least I am not prepared to be someone like that.

You told me that he likes girls yang baik and that sounded like you were saying I am totally jahat or something like that. (well people I don't know how you define jahat)

Anyway, you guys are so genius together. That what makes you both.

So aku tak perlu lah nak tunggu till degree and tell him about my feelings because yaya's world has gone upside down (once again).

So aku doa je kat tuhan yang mama and ayah panjang umur so I could love them both and stay with them. Because I have no love interest sebab by far I have told mama that I am going to work on it till degree to tell him my feelings. But my dreams never came true or (snatched by her probably).

whoopdeedoo!!

2011-01-18T16:55:00.002+08:00

today isn't a fairytale. Tak payah dengar cakap Taylor Swift.

But whoopdeedoo i feel happy without a reason. Maybe there is a reason but yang pasti not a guy comes right up and ask me on a date. Maybe sebab effect almond bitter tu kot yang bagi mental boost. Oh yess, i just got my internet line back yang freaking laju. Ok taknak brag! nanti it comes back to be grandpa-turtle-slow.

And i feel a little less excited sbb postage blckberry ade problem. oh mama. so i might get it later later and later. grr.

Anyway, yes, there's one new guy talked to me. Brave enough huh. Do I even look like a maneater breed?

He asked to borrow my thumb drive but weird.. I can sense that he's controlling his voice. Was it me or his voice was so low? Come on, why people need to act like that when people can assure that all of us are the same and has the same thoughts.

But, heck. He wasn't the tall cutie I was talking about in my previous blog. Argh, when, when, when would he has the guts to even nudge me!

Here we go (iklan kejap)

my dad just sent me a text message;

If you want something you never had, you must be willing to do something you have never done!- Thomas Jefferson (whoever he is ayah)

you really gave me an idea daddy! in order to be wanting a guy you must do something in unusual way. like? whatever. I am not serious.

Okay, in order to be wanting something like an iPhone 4 or a hummer, i must do something unusual like, asking ayah to sign a cheque of 1 million. lol don't try this at home.

It isn't real. It means, duh, think by yourself. I am tried.....tired lah keyboard bodo (excuse me for the language) after a whole day class and less rest.

Today's meal;

breakfast; 2 wholesome meal bread and tuna spread

lunch; soy milk and almond bitter sticks

snack; 3 bread and tuna spread

dinner; not yet

going jogging with hoin hoin =)

(i can feel my waist wooppa wooppa)

p/s: I WANNA GO LADY GAGA LIVE IN VEGASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SHIT.

let berry do the talking

2011-01-16T14:55:00.006+08:00

i am just wondering which blackberry internet plan is the cheapest among all the networks in Malaysia. so i just surveyed three stores; digi, maxis, celcom.

and the one that really caught my interest is Digi.

it's not because it is yellow and has a fat mascot but because of it's low call rate and internet plan.

only that i am too confused about picking either; postpaid or prepaid.

baru tahu nak bbm, facebook, twitter semua boleh pakai prepaid and it's only rm2 per day. tapi slow tak slow tu tak tahu.

and i am interested in rm78 postpaid per month. only that call and sms are not included in rm78 payment. so nnti bayar lebih. but you dont have to spend your 2 seconds to type a text message to Digi like the rm2 per day( saverraver berry)

nevermind, i just try the saverraver first. if the internet is super duper slow i change to postpaid (sebab aku bukan selalu gayut pun) to be safe.

envy my dad sebab he's using maxis internet plan which pays up to rm200 per month not included call lines. damn kaya. i am so miskin than him.

a date with low fat caramel macchiato and Dell

2011-01-16T14:27:00.002+08:00

yes a date.
i call spending time to myself with comfort food and a laptop a date. really. it's not noob. it's not like i am a loser and don't have a guy to date. i do. only that i am too lazy to be shy in front of boys. i mean you know like the first date you must feel awkward to talk. it's either both of u remain silent, run out of stories, one of you do too much of talking, which would be me, or you both start to talk at the same time. it is awkward and more likely not to act like yourself. and aku malas nak buat semua tu. So i prefer to spend time or going out with my girl friend rather than boys. tapi sampai bila nak macam ni. that's the question. remain as question until today.

like now i am stuck at starbuck with my low fat c m and dell which will run out of battery anytime and a phone with 0.05 cent prepaid. the only option i have is to approach my guy friend who works near by to borrow his phone.

ok lets not talk about myself and what am i doing today.
this one punya topik agak hot sekarang. a friend of mine asked me a question yesterday.

why boys nowadays are so spaced-out and don't easily get what a girl really wants?
or in malay, kenapa lelaki sekarang sangat lambat pick up?

yes, kaum hawa ni memang suka guna bahasa sendiri. i mean bukan swahili or finnish or whatsoever, tapi psychology la.

contoh,

girl: don't really need to buy me a gift on my birthday dear. (of being modest)

that means: i really am waiting for your special yet surprising gift that makes me grin and my heart bursts throughout my special day dear.

girl: what are you doing today?

meaning: most probably: i am bored. ask me out. duh!

there are so many i couldn't list out here. but boys please learn a little not that engineering hard pun nak study sikit about girls. that's why girls become like everyday is pms. sebab boys just don't get it.

but to me maybe most of the boys bukannya lambat pick up, but a "little" shy or afraid that the girl has someone else in mind. maybe.

okay i am the exact same girl like others and i have my own dictionary of speaking to people. may or may not be straight forward but sometimes people need to think hard about rephrasing what am i really trying to say to them.

30% more battery life. long live Dell! urghh. got to go.

2011-01-10T20:34:00.005+08:00

this i want to brag!
my lovely friend just got back home!!!
i am so happy i mean i was happy yesterday and i am still happy she's here...i don't feel isolated anymore (issit the right word?) i guess...

today aku ada lab je and kelas lain semua cancel. so according to plan we go shopping together. Bestla sebab kalau tak best tak sampai malam. Yes I am guilty tapi nevermindlah, just enjoy whatever i am doing(one of the un exist resolution).

alamak aku nak tulis panjang2 pun xleh...online kat BR dan ade curfew kolej. memang hebat!

p/s: revise about the stuff you just asked this morning or you will be like usual you the previous sem!!! ok xnk tido sgt mlm ni tho ada kelas 8 pagi esok...huwaaaaa

One and a million.

2011-01-07T10:51:00.002+08:00

Good Morning! Hari ini sangat hebat dan it's a fresh kickstart early in the morning. Macam orang tua2 British cakap early bird catches the worm. Memang pagi yang hebat sebab bangun awal hantar borang kolej, jumpa lecturer dan ready untuk kelas 10 pagi. Aku nak tanye, ape perasaan kalau dua pagi (8 pagi) berturut-turut pergi kelas yang end up ada 6 orang dan lecturer pun batalkan kelas. Positif. positif year 2011 is the year of positiveness. So they can see you're making an effort to the class. yay. Dan pagi ini pon sama. Hampir patah kaki sebab today nak jadi ladies pakai wedges entah berapa inci tinggi jalan sana sini. Control stability itu penting. Diri pun confuse pusat graviti dekat mana sebab pakai effect tak selamat untuk nampak lebih tinggi. (tak banyak sikit je pun). Positive. (lupakan isu ketot). Back to the title,

Kenapa one and a million sedangkan lagu Ne-yo kata one in a million?
Sebab aku bukan Ne-yo. Lammmme.
Sebenarnya topic ni takde kena mengena pun tapi okaylah aku bagi pendapat sikit, hari tu aku ada bincang dengan kawan aku pasal graduan2 universiti yang semakin ramai (macam ala2 MPP la pulak cuma borak bawah pokok bukan dekat bilik meeting.). So kalau grad ramai sangat, kerja mesti limited. So aku bear in mind tak semestinya semua grad dapat kerja pada tarikh yang sama. Tak nakla sebut isu menganggur. Tapi dewasa in(skemarama ayat) nowadays la, ramai mak bapak own syarikat sendiri. So depa senang la. Takde isu langsung nak minta kerja. Jaga syarikat jaga nama. Settle.

So, aku yang one dan a million lagi orang bakal minta kerja tak lama je lagi kan. Tunggulah habis master.

Okay, hari ni bukan horrible sebab mantan presiden bagi salam kat aku. uwahhh! (hati lompat2). So charming. Kenapa mak aku kata dia takdela hensem sangat!!?? Mak memang unfair. Tak kanlah aku nak cari serupe Asyraf Muslim (err hensem ke ma). Oh okaylah at least aku taw la ma punya taste. grr. Tapi hansome2 pon ma bila dah tua rupa tak lekat lainlah kalau pakai benda asing kasi muka tak lapuk dek zaman. (bukan tradisi je, muka pun tak lapuk).

Ok sudah2 la cerita kaum adam. Malam tadi tengok You Again. One lesson learnt: everybody deserves a second chance.

No matter how horrid, gangster, brutal, b-word, a pain in the ass pun perangai orang tu what past is past (kata Gale (mak Marni)). So everybody deserves a second chance.

So macam mana? Yep, I don't deny to apology if the person is being nice to me. Make me the first to apology if you are nice to me. But, one condition is, not to talk behind one back. Come on. Dah 21 dah. tak faham? We are twenty fucking one years old! (tak maksud nak mencarut tapi nak tiru ayat Kim Cattral dalam Sex and the city 2) A lot of my friends dah naik pelamin dah. Takkanlah masih nak main cakar macam kucing kan. If someone can forget about the past and start anew why not others?

Yes I have a lot to hate on the list. A lot. But I already forget. Laughing at people's ass is orang jalanan punya style. Professionals ignore or say hello. Or macam presiden ucap salam. Baru charming =).

Nah it's okay if the arrow doesn't strike at the right person or the right point. So, I am just saying sisters.

Oops I did it again!

2011-01-05T11:45:00.002+08:00

Macam Britney la kan nak oopsie oopsie ni. Eh. Tak perlu la nak sorry sebab people makes mistakes. Like I said in my previous story there's no such thing as mistakes in this world. Selama ni dalam kamus aku mistake tu tak wujud. Habis apa? Takkan kau tak mengaku kau buat silap pun? Keras kepala betol kau ni!

Eh bukanlah, bagi aku mistake is lesson. Aku kata pengajaran. Kalau tak buat silap mana manusia nak belajar bukan? Tapi lain lah kes manusia tu buat silap seribu kali pun masih dok tang tu ja (kata org penang). I'm just saying no hard feelings.

Tahun 2011 ni memang agak tough dan memenatkan juga. But the best thing will be shown at the end of semester. Kata orang tua-tua is always at the back of my head: Bersusah dulu sebelum senang. So, aku tak risau apa-apa pun walaupun semuanya susah sekarang. With lecturers and mama and ayah's and best friend's supports I can always proceed. No failure requires.

Aku suka cabaran yang ada kat sekeliling. Paling aku suka orang yang buat aku fikir negatif sana-sini. Sebab kalau takde diorang aku pun jadi tak bersemangat nak hadapi hidup. Inilah aku namakan mental booster. So kau, kau dan kau adalah mental booster. Kalau yang mulut banyak aku letak rooster. Kekeke (gelak yang dulu aku anggap annoying tapi macam cool pulak).

Oh anyway, ni aku nak tambah high school type punya cerita. Aku ada "hancur"! Tapi "hancur" aku tu pun adik aku ni ha minat gak. Eh. Apa kau cakap ni. hancur?.

CRUSH la.

tu direct translation. rupanya hancur aku tu satu kelas dengan aku semalam. Haha. Adik aku tu takde kat sini so aku sampaikan jela kat dia. Dan dia agak jeal...(korg tahu aku nak tulis apakan?). So kalau nak berkawan mestilah kena approach. So aku nak start macam mana?

Cleo magazine tolak tepi.

y: hi, eh last sem pun sama kelas kan? macam mana result?

psychology meter: mak datok ko nak tanya pasal result?!!!?

y: hi, baju awak ni sepesyen je dari last sem.
(sebab style dia semua baju kemeja kotak2 dari last semester cuma warna je tak sama. i think)

psychology meter: kau nak dia lari ke. sebab fikir kau fashion freak or dia fikir kau kata dia freak.

y: hi, awak mesti pandaikan. Jom duduk same2. (kelip2 mata) (wait..!!! pakailah bulu mata unta(fake eyelashes) baru effect kelas!)

psychology meter: geli aku. konfirm dia lari selangkah demi selangkah. (hmm bayang sendiri)

haha. aku takkan buat mana2 pon yang diatas. Gomez cakap: everything comes naturally even when the whole year there's no rain. (lebih kuranglah macam tu).

20 satu satu (interview Blake Lively) baca tau.

2011-01-01T15:52:00.004+08:00

hello hello baby you call I can't hear a thing!
Oh god, rupanya pencawang dah kena strike by lightning! (nyanyi ikut irama telephone)

Nasib baiklah pak long yang call terhapus niat aku nak jawab glamour2 mcm lady gaga tu. Takpela save it when Gaga calls.

Marriage.

Cakap pasal marriage terkesima (word belajar dari blog nyah), terkesima aku sebab bila masuk cuti semester yang ni setelah umur dah dekat setahun aku dah jadi 20 tahun (tak faham sudah), ramai (ke banyak) rakan2 yang hantar kad. Schedule aku dari schedule seorang remaja (remaja lagi) yang sedang menikmati hidup yang masih muda (muda lagi) jadi schedule mak andam or tok kadi (tok kadi kan? bukan tok mudim. smpai sekarang aku pening). Baru je tanggal heels ala2 heels Rebecca Mink depan rumah, postman bekejar kejaran bagi kad jemputan yang lain. So cuti ni aku jadi tetamu undangan bukan artis undangan ye.

Terkesima melihat wajah kanak-kanak yang main guli dengan kite dulu ye sekarang tersengih sengih atas pelamin (dah aku rasa macam kau main kahwin(bahasa kecik2 dulu bantai je cakap main kahwin2, budak2 mana reti). Yela bagi aku muka rakan baik tu sama je dari umur 6 tahun smpai sekarang ape pon perubahan dia sama je bagi aku. (memangla kamu cantik sayang). Tapi yelah macam tak percaya je sekarang dia dah pon berumah tangga. Husband kau memang kelas gitu chinese look.

Cousin punya wedding dengan Marion aku tak nak komen banyak sebab korg boleh baca sendiri ke tengok E! news asia ke. Suka hatilah.

Banyak lagi wedding2 ni ade yang aku skip atas sebab2 tertentu so mohon maaf atas tak tunjuk kelibat kat majlis anda semoga anda ceria selalu. (ayat familiar lah).

Exclusive!

Interview Blake Lively dalam E! news alih bahasa:
So, apa komen anda tentang kahwin muda2 ni?

Well, I don't believe in early marriages like some others do, I mean for myself. Bagi aku life aku tak stable lagi dari banyak segi. Memang sebab utama tak ada calon. (bukan pasal nate archibald tak setialah!) Tapi sebab lain marriage is a wall also a guilt for you to pursue anything that make you satisfied in life. Maksud aku, kalau nak tanggung family kena ada duit, tapi duit pakai untuk belajar tapi lain lah kalau aku ni anak billionaire goyang kaki duit datang goyang kaki duit datang. Then, macam2 la, lu pikir la sendiri. So tunggu hidup stable and dah achieve contohnya master dlm bidang lakonan ke, ada sebuah rumah sendiri, kereta sendiri barulah fikir bina masjid. Okay?
Calon pula macam mana?

Calon calonnya adalah, ini bukan emmy awards cik kak, nak cari calon bukan senang. Sebab aku ni bukan jenis suka cari kalau boleh nak benda tu datang je sendiri. Tapi kalau duduk je dalam kepompong tak buka kepak yang cantik ni memang none la yang datang bukan? Jadi, usaha tu kenalah ada untuk diri sendiri jadilah high maintenance sikit. Baru orang pandang. Tapi bukan tu saje janganla letak emas ke mutiara dalam mulut (damn, aku tak kata piercing lidah, haram tu) maksud aku jangan tak sosial dengan masyarakat. Macam aku lah kan bila jadi Serena van Der Woodsen dalam Gossip Girl aku memang suka sosial. Macam tu la senang dapat calon ( yaya: nasihat ni jangan ikut). Tapi...tapi sebagai Blake Lively, saya tak rush things out. Just wait for someone perfect to appear.
Nak rupa calon macam mana?

Mestilah kalau boleh macam Chace Crawford (Nate Archibald) good shoulders. ummm...tapi taknak muka je kalau Dan Humphrey good shoulders to lean on (maksudnye someone that's always around when ups and downs or anything in between). So rupa memang penting dan hati pon penting. Kalau rupa je penting baik ambil robot je jadi boy friend.
Appearance penting tak?

Garbage. Maksud aku soalan kau macam aku ade jawab tadi. Okay, tambahlah, memang penting. Sebab nak share ni, aku pernah duduk sebelah lelaki ni and I smell something funny or fishy ke ape apelah. Memang dia pakai perfume, tapi still that odour dapat cover. I think bau kasut lah. hmm.. Other situation, yep I understood aku kawan kau, tapi aku rasa kurang selesa la bila setiap kali keluar ramai2 tengok kau in that shirt je lagi. Kalau lain2 warna tak apa, ni warna memang sama tapi makin lain (tak faham ke? pudar lah). Tu memang reject la (hey aku tak mengata siapa2 eh (just nasihat la, dengan aku (Blake Lively walaupun kawan baik dengan Anna Wintour (editor Vogue mag) pun aku tak kisah kawan dengan siapa pon tapi kalau perempuan cun lain tengok kau kan dah hilang bintang kau. So ingatan sahaja. Contoh lain, kalau nak keluar berdua je (as friends) aku tak la nak expect lelaki ni pakai ala2 Kanye West or Nate Archibald (yaya: Blake, kate jela ko de crush dengan Nate tu). Aku expect dia pakai kemas. Studs, piercing. Is A BIG NO!. Aku cukup benci lelaki pakai barang kemas. Sebab Habib dengan Poh Kong buat jewelries for women bukan men!
Rambut?

Pendek! itu je aku nak kata.

Yeke?

Oh, tak lupa LUPA nak tambah tanpa gel yang berkilat macam tiap tiap kali aku pandang ko baru keluar dari swimming pool.
Education?

Mestilah the highest. Lowest pun master la. Kalau boleh professional macam lelaki2 yang dalam Grey's Anatomy tu. Surgeon yang hot. haha. Anyway, aku nak macam tu sebab nak generasi yang macam parents juga bukan? Aku tak kata aku professional, tapi I'm working on it =).

Blake macam mana kau boleh buat expression muka mcam tadi?

Macam mana? oh macam ni =). Meh aku ajar = ). = )

=) =) =)

okla nampak gayanya Blake dah hilang idea ke penat dah cakap banyak sebab makin pendek je ayat dia smpai muka dia boleh keluar smiley. Takpe aku pon dah terer buat dah =). Anyway thank you Blake. Tak sangka aku ko terrer bahasa rojak ni ye. Next interview aku nak try terjah kaum lelaki pula. Siapa dia? Tungguuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.

20 satu satu

2011-01-01T15:14:00.002+08:00

Chassis ke chiss.

Yela almaklumlah aku ni bru nk bukak kitab chassis. Takpe2, tak rase ketinggalan pon sebab aku nak jadi macam Alice Hellcats, keras kepala pon dia tak kisah pe yang dah jadi quote Alice "no such things as mistakes". Tak ketinggalan sebab ade yang umur da masuk 60 tahun tapi suspension pon tak tau. So aku kira bertuah la sebab lambat2 pon tahu jugak cuma nak jadi cemerlang tu je otak ni ade kotoran degil sikit.

Language.

Kawal language. Bukan la sumpah seranah. Tapi kawal2 la language sebab aku tengok adik aku yang umur 12 tahun pun tulis kat fb short short form dah sejak dah ramai kawan kat facebook. Tapi dulu time text msg (sms) dengan aku words habis. eg; sudah makan ke belum?. Camtu la gayanya. Tapi sekarang ni lain la jadinya. dah mkn ke lom. Aku risau la UPSR BM dapat lain dari yang disangka.

Biggest Loser.

JANGAN SALAHKAN GRAVITI. Memamngla kalau timbang kat bulan, sama berat ngan Naomi Campbell (yaya takde role model lain ke masyaallah). Tapi sejak tengok biggest loser, yela kan abang sedara punya bini yang host (Marion Caunter Abdullah), semngat threadmill (macam tikus putih dah ni) lari 5.5 km/h maintain sejam sambil lagu2 Britney keep on playing mmberi semangat. OOOOh stronger than yesterday! jyeah. Lagi bukan sebab biggest loser je tapi sbb influence dari badan mean green macam Aly Michalka kat Hellcats (yang nama Marti tu). Solid (bukanla mcm malik nor). eg; abs pon flat, punggung tegang je, paling cantik lengan dia bila dia buat cheer stunt. Okla bila dah balik kampus, ni la masalah universiti Malaysia ni susah ke nak sediakan gym. Bukan dosa pon. Lagi dosa kalau spend duit kat gym luar (just saying).yela sedangkan duit banyak bukannya bagi subsidi lebih pon pada student. (dah dah bebel macam PM lak kan) cuma aku takleh jadi Najib la nak alih2 bahasa dlm speech. Nevermind, gym yang ade pon setakat besi2 buruk kat outdoor yang dip[anggil gym bila kite orang perempuan ni lompat2 tarik2 sikit jongkang jongkit sikit budak laki mula pandang serong (serong ke lain).

Ok pantang je aku nak mengarang macam author Harry Potter cuma Hey Reporter je jadi, mesti ade orang memanggil2 dlm telefon. Karang jadi Lady Gaga nyanyi dlm penjara baru tahu. To be Continued..

20 satu satu

2011-01-01T12:01:00.002+08:00

Oh well well well my cute 2011 has arrived, I have been looking forward for the number to appear on my hand phone screen except for I have to reset the date due to frequent changing of sim cards.

Ok sudah sudah tak nak la melalut lagi tahun 2011 ni. Umur pun dah bertingkat tingkat...nasib baik muka masih belasan tahun. haha. ketinggian? no judgement. kasut platform dkny dah memadai. sbb selalu yg branded je platform haram tinggi macam jalan dah tak pijak bumi. Semua kaum wanita nak jadi pontianak ke. Tapi kalu sekarang aku tengok kat tv pontianak pon jalan dah pijak bumi berkaki ayam dah tak ada lagi terbang terbang dah. Sebab terbang air asia pon tambang dah murah tapi servis je la macam haram. Kalau nak check in lambat lima belas minit kena pretend aku ni anak kardashian barulah di layan kut tapi kalau humble sangat bye bye la jawabnya.

Okay, okay. Si kaki melalut. Aku rasa baik aku tak payah nak sembang2 pasal (my so called new year resolutions). Keep it to myself that's way better. Sebab kalau selalu nak sembang sangat lebat2 nanti tak buat lak. (mengata diri sendiri). Anyway, sebelum nak mula gossip 2011 (tiru gossip girl, tapi anak-anak orang kaya mana aku nak stalker and mengata eh, haha), aku nak komen pasal ape aku rase nak jadi, nak buat, nak melahirkan (ceh bukan anak la) pada tahun ini.

Fashion

Ni topik paling paling top yang aku nak cerita dulu la. Belakangan ini (bahasa jiwa bangsa), aku tengok sekeliling sedara mara aku ramai yang pakai seluar slack slim cut then lipat bwh kasi singkat sampai atas sikit buku lali. Then pakai la statement shoes. (perempuan dan para lelaki materialistik faham apa tu statement shoes, tak tahu google(kamus tak diperlukan dewasa ini). Palingla nak dikatakan statement shoes, brogue shoes ala2 lelaki2 british bangsawan. Tapi zaman sekarang dah ubah trend perempuan lak ambil alih. Bukan cross dressingla. Ini atas undang2 designer la.

Boyfriend or best friend?

Feewit. Aku ni cepat terinfluenced dengan tv show. Hellcats. Ni bukan sekadar alkisah football groupie je tapi friendship. Marti (perempuan) dah berkawan baik dengan si Dan (lelaki) sejak zaman diapers lagi (quote kata2 Dan). Tapi kalau dah kawan baik dari ko period punye time pon dia tau smpai saiz spender ko pon die tau ni bukan bestfriend but soulmates. So for me it is better cari sebanyak banyak kawan bukan perempuan sahaja malah lelaki. kenal lama2. So in conclusion, buat masa ni kawan dengan type2 yang nak jadi kawan sahaja. Not kawan baru sebulan dah buat proposal nak jadi lover. Proposal declined.........

Nerd or noob?

Nerd bukanlah noob. Nerd tu lagi power. Tapi one thing aku tak boleh lagi jadi nerd since skolah dulu dah jadi. And aku kena struggle utk study sekarang kenalah guna extra energy boost nak panjat tangga yang curam tinggi melangit lagi. So study hard. Sebab smart2 pon xleh pakai da skrg huhu. Dont be a smart arse be a smart head.

Moolah kasi amoi kedai ka sendiri mau simpan.

Yela tabung2 mana main. Sekarang main bank je nak simpan duit. Sebab? Sebabnye kalau tabung depan mata baru masuk RM1 sehari besok dah ajaib. Toyol tu kamu lah. Tapi kalu bank lak puluhan ringgit pon boleh lesap. Apa mau jadi ni. So azam la, simpan duit letak gambar limo hummer kat sebelah ngna driver yang kacak. Booster untuk simpan duit dari RM1 sehari 2 tahun lagi dah boleh beli hummer. Kira la sendiri aku tak mau campur. Tu contoh dan idea. Buat or tak tak tahula. Tapi aku nak kurangkan movie, karaoke and such things. Sebab pleasure tu aku boleh simpan nak guna beli tiket flight pegi new york london and paris lagi. lol. takpon yang famous sekarang Singapore (haha).

Ala mama ni panggil2 plak. Yela guests ramai kat bawah. Guest plak bkn umur mcm aku. Takpe nnti kita sambung sembang na.

2010-11-27T20:00:00.006+08:00

Howdy ladies!

It is semester break (yeah it is) and wow (I should say sigh!) time is flying fast. Yea, I spent my time at Ampang Putri Hospital for almost a week (counting the days). Despite the scary pointy needles and vaccines going into my skin it was all comfortable for having comfort food there since i don't have any problems on my diet (put aside my feverish appetite.) But now i am back home. Back to family business and all the hustles and bustles.

Okay! enough already with my what-am-i-doing-today-and-everyday stories. Here is my next research on the hair style you ought to have for December, not December 1960, not December 1990 but yup! December 2010, ladies. So grab your curlers, brush, pins and bows (and whatever it takes to do your hair), sit back and scroll down to see the now chosen hair styles you can bring down from the runways to the streets yaw or balls (as you wish).

But (here is as "I wish"):

as I wish, these are the hottest dos for wherever you go. Inspired by Rapunzel! when she got into town in the kingdom and that three kids who braid for each other did a pretty sleek braid for Rapunzel. And also inspired by SVW (Serena van der Woodsen in case you don't watch Gossip Girl (please google her style, only after you have done reading my blog) where S has this side braid at Chuck's formal event. Take a look;

and Alexander Wang (left) and Miu Miu (right)

Which side-braid would you sport?

Talk about buns (not scones for god sake) buns belong to grannies (nay anymore for these days). It is a complete myth! now I can say we girls be the hair myth busters. Remember Katy Perry's bun in her *Teenage Dream video (check it out you are on the net duh) when she is looking at the guy who's boxing. It's pretty cute right and make her eyes look even bigger (who don't love big eyes). Buns buns buns. Do a high bun (that's in for December 2010)

Marc Jacobs (left)Lanvin (right)Which high bun steals the spotlight?

I would never stop taking examples from Gossip Girl because the SVW and BW are good trend-setters. Talk abou BW (Blair Waldorf). In season 4 she suddenly leaves her head band behind. What happen (like GG would say: WTF)?

Well taking down from Milan Bows are in right now and should not be left like BW did. (I am mad!)

Which bow accessory looks best?

this has not come to an end yet..well I am still looking out for more and MORE!! great hair styles that do not need much accessories and hair stylist (forget what Blair Waldorf said to Juliet Sharp in Gossip Girl season 4 (about Juliet doing her own hair and that is so lame) because Blair was just "saying" =D

My plans this semester break.

2010-10-30T13:02:00.002+08:00

I have four more killer papers to go and then i'll soar into the sky. So while i am going to soar what would i do? like mama always reminds me to not soar in slumberland...ohh you know what i mean. So i have made plans before the holidays come.

Due to not hearing any plans to go to London or anywhere to travel i decided to stay at home. Plus, i have canceled my application for the industrial practice at Honda due to my wanting so much to relax rather than working my brain. I admit it is kind of stupid to be such an asshole staying at home doing nothing but eating french fries with telly remote control in hand while sitting in your so called throne. Before that even happens i have thought about it and it already scares me. I don't want to end up being a fat ass having, blocked arteries and rusting brain and not even fit my skinny jeans anymore. How scary!

So the plans are;

1. I know i said i did not want to get any job but i think getting a job at the gym pays right? (only to the fact to be fit and toned!) so will try to get a job at fitness first near my house. hopefully i will get it.

2. If i don't get the job, i'm going to start doing a research on arts of the human body. Like mister da vincci did, he did not just draw the outer human body but he learned to paint all the muscles and the inner parts of the body. And i also would need to learn more about sketching the detail parts of human facade then i will move to sketching animals. (all of these just to improve the technique of my sketching and trying to find my own artwork style). And i am thinking of visiting the National library too and also our National Art Gallery. So lots and lots of paintings are required.

3. Having my "Taj of my family" album done. I would have to asked lots of permission from my mother and her sister to visit my late grandparents' house to see the old albums. There i might find many things interesting. Only that the house is so big and kind of creepy i might need my cousins to company.

4. Get my friends to window shop ikea for my interior decorating my new house plan. Plus maybe we could do a short movie of our own 500 days of summer only i want to make a change of the part for being poker face Zooey Deschanel in that movie.

5. Read all the automotive notes (might seem impossible)

My goals in life

2010-10-29T22:14:00.003+08:00

despite of scoring for finals yadda yadda

1. i'm not sure whether in the future i would be

an automotive engineer working in Japan
or
an interior architect/designer working in Italy.

2. climb mount Fuji (always on top of my list)

this scenery was what on my mind before i found this picture!
(the cherry blossom tree is the exact position before mt.fuji)

3. swim in the lake in Vancouver

4. dress like Carrie Bradshaw and take photos in New York
5. take my family for holiday on boat in Greece (like in the sisterhood of traveling pants movie)
6. date my dream Japanese Italian guy (quite impossible) lol
7.
8.
there are plenty of numbers i haven't thought of my goals in life yet. I will think of them soon.

I'm crazy about Doc Martens!!!!

2010-10-29T19:39:00.003+08:00

Pink Doc Martens or Black Doc Martens?

I like black DM because it suits my skinny jeans plus i am petite i don't think pink fits me. I would look shorter if i wear pink and pink is totally girlish.

But at the same time pink is eye-catching!

I like eye-catching stuff too. Hmm. I wonder what colour would it be.

Doc Martens the major wearer is Agynes Dean of course. She wears red, white and plenty of colours. Plus, Avril wears em too.

DM should be worn with skinny jeans, wash out skinny jeans, tights and skirt and the best is wear crop mini jeans , a pair of floral tights and white doc martens.

Gonna wear DM for the next trip to London yaw.

wasted at starbucks?

2010-10-29T11:36:00.000+08:00

i'm not talking about money being wasted for a venti. But i'm talking about nowadays i always feel weird after i drank any of the starbucks coffee. Especially americano black coffee that i usually drink while doing my work and assignments. Yes, it really does keep you awake and energetic but in a kind of painful way. The back of my head hurts after drinking half of the cup of less strong coffee as i requested to the usual barista. 2 packets of white sugar and 1 brown sugar being put and the rest depends on the ingredients of the coffee itself by the signature brand that's literally famous globally. Global coffee. But does it has the same effect everytime millions of workers, movie stars, dog walkers and theater actors sip the every last litre of it. The questions are; does it really contain alcohol as rumored? does the cherry use dipped in alcohol? do the cakes contain rum?

All of these as questioned do make sense rather than to accuse that they may put drugs in it. I would have denied the accusation of course. It makes difference when I drink my latte in coffee beans albeit i don't seem to feel the same way after drinking it. so well said but question may be unanswered. I believe i have found notices from the ISO that all chocolate, vanilla and coffee drinks at Coffee Bean and Starbuck contains E471 (Emulsifier 471), mono di-glycefideswhich is from animal origin (pork). Raspberry Frap uses cherries that has been dip n alcohol & the tiramisu contains RUM.

Why do i care? Its not just the reason that I am a Muslim but I do care for my 20 year old healthy body and mind. So I really need the confirmation as if it's true why would it be hidden. Spread it through the news so people would be more careful for their choice of branded food, beverages and any other materials. People would not believe it until it is made as a headline.

I know some of you may say; screw them all or what do you care, just stop drinking starbucks coffee.
Well in that case i wouldn't mind all of your thoughts but it is good to care about myself and to care about everybody.
So starbucks stop making me feel dizzy will ya?

2010-06-03T15:34:00.002+08:00

So go on..make your little 'getaway'. My pride will keep me company and you just gave yours all away.

2010-06-03T00:10:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was the most tiring day. But it paid off. After a long day deciding for the paint colour for the house, the rooms, kitchen designs and picking tiles (it was easy for me but tougher for mom-sigh) we had little arguments, then we visited the side and it was raining- we went to and fro with umbrellas and great I forgot to bring boots and soaked my pants in the mud (sigh2). And then I was like "mom how on earth am i gonna walk through dataran pahlawan like someone who just came back from rugby field?" and she said "its a challenge live with it". Eh she said that simply and I wished she could also "simply" picked the tiles and decos.

O dear I lived with it. Then we were so famished I could sense that cuz my bro bought to large packets of twisties (sooo not healthy but i ate half of it no doubt). We went for javanese restraunt. Nasi padang. At first I thought nasi kandar then when I see the plase so weird with weird menus I asked where is padang exactly? And the waitress rolled her eyes and said Indonesia without the duh! like i know. Ok2 i was about to grab this cracker on the table luckily my dad said "u ought to try it, nice it's the cow's abs skin and they fried it"...wth..i put it back in place so nicely. (not another fear factor challenge.)

I was confused with the beverage menu so i just ordered starfruit juice like the pronounce it "Es belimbing" wtv. My dad drink dis peculiar drink made of avocados and chocolate. I was nauseaous to taste it cuz the texture was too thick. not good for thirst quenching.

After our early dinner mom decided to buy me new PANTS!!! wit and S that means more than one. Iman got 2 from Esprit but I didnt cuz i was bored of their plain old designs. So I searched Mango and found 2 loose jeans and none of shirts (no mood for shirts). Then we went for G&H and I saw another 2 pants. OMG I cant believe i shopped that much. Ok done. I have to stopped sbb nak bodek mama nk lepak with friends in KL later.

But to me Melaka is a nice place to hangout now. As for me a person to have an interest with cute and unique restraunts and cafes and love to see odd things Melaka is the place. I wish i cld bring my friends to hang out there once the house is done =)

2010-05-31T16:04:00.001+08:00

OK ITS TIME FOR VAPOUR CYLE YADDAYADDAYADDA

2010-05-18T11:04:00.002+08:00

Manusia ni bukannya bodoh. Tapi buat2 bodoh. Aku maksudkan bodoh bukannya satu carutan tapi satu kiasan yang mmberi maksud pandai dan berotak tapi diri sendiri banyak ikutkan hati bukan kepandaian dan otak dia.

Ada dua situasi, situasi pertama, kebodohan aku. Aku memang bodoh dalam situasi ni. Sebab aku ikut hati tapi x paham logik. Hati kata rindu, sayang, tapi sebenarnya otak kata jauh tu lagi baik, sbb benda ni xde faedah. Dulu pernah aku ikotkan otak sbb time tu maybe aku tiba2 x bodoh kot. Hati time tu mmg sayang tapi klw kena tusuk dgn pedang je bertubi-tubi, tinggal serpih jela. So hati mati, otak tinggal. Bila otak tinggal aku ikotla otak ni yang kata tinggalkan la manusia ni. Xde maknanya nak layan dia sbb dia gunakan kau je. Kau je perasan lebih. Or dia yang xde hati perut. Ha bertapa kelakarnya.

Tapi, peluang dan forgiveness tu mmg selalu ada. Manusia seperti aku yang masih memijak bumi bukan kepunyaan aku tak layak klw nak sombong pada kaum dan habitat sendiri selama-lamanya. Kesimpulannya, kalaw dah nama nya membe belajar pon sebumbung teduh pon selangit panas pon sehaba basah pon sehujan, x salah klw nak berbaik semula kan. Tp situasi ni bukan membe lg dah. Sbb aku igt dia dah bagi peluang kedua utk aku tjuk concern kat dia. Aku ikhlas simpati kat dia, sbb aku taw kau resah dgn masalah sendiri. Aku bagi sebaik mungkin biar kau perut kenyang, mandi pon basah, poket pon penuh. Kau faham2 sendiri jelah klw kau baca.

Ada setengah waktu kau layan aku mcm aku ni half of your life. Macam lah katakan. Then waktu lain plak kau ckp depan2 aku yang kau rindu permpuan ni. Aku rasa mcm aku kena guna la. Mmgla time ni kau ade masalah. Aku company kau baik punya. Tak boleh ke kau jaga hati aku time aku ada. Aku rasa klw aku cakap pon xde effect kot. Kau tetap rindu kat Alinda kesayangan kau tu kan. So go with ur damn life missing her and jgn minta apa2 dari aku. Sebab aku tahu kau baik dgn aku sbb aku da tlg kau. and kau terhutang budi dgn aku. Tp kau x hutang apa2 dgn aku sbb aku telahpun mmbayar hutang aku dikala aku susah2 satu masa dahulu. Kau short term memory lost kan. So diharap kau sembuh dan igt balikla ape kau da ckp dan buat smlm yang buat hati aku tercalar. Tapi sayangnya calar dah berdarah darah xnk henti. Xpe biar hati aku mati.

Im sick Im tired. Aku cuba butakan mata aku pekak kan telinga aku, tp hati aku x boleh nak buta lah. Mmglah sbb hati xde mata tp hati aku ni masih ada nyawa. Baiklah hari ni aku duduk diam2 kat bilik, x jejak tanah. Kalaw rindu kereta aku boleh jenguk je kat tgkap kan Ain kan? Nak rindu ko? Mmg aku rindu, tp cukuplah smpai sini sbb aku taw dlm hati ko kosong sbnrnya.

Unlucky day; class bosan, xdpt blik ngn ain sbb dia hbis lmbt, hujan lebat, pagar blkg baiduri ttup, aku basah kuyup, tergelincir dkt bgunan hotel dan sekali lg kat baiduri, kunci tggal kat bilik, bercakap dgn pihak baiduri yang sombong mcm shit, rmbut brketak semula, dan now in my room.

2010-05-15T00:57:00.002+08:00

Arwah uncle, SM Nasimuddin Amin's tahlil just over. It was the best occasion ever, its not just all about tahlil but it was also about the vip guests there. They are famous ulama around d globe; from spain, africa, UAE, morocco, and u name it. And one of them was Nabi Muhammad s.a.w's relative, Sheikh Afiffudin. I heard their speeches in arab tho i didnt quite understand the words, their marhaban and azan. Insaf, insaf.

Anyway I get to see the babies after so long. Zoey Rania Nasim and Sheikh Mohd. Faiz. They are equally cute. Faiz was the one who laugh when we make a vroom...vroom...sound(ferrari sound)...tawla daddy jual keta..haha...Later i'll upload his pic. Oh dear, I didn't get to capture Zoey's pic sbb ppl keep stealing her away from me. But believe me, she's wayyy cuter than Mia Sara.

Afterward, I asked Nadia about the diamonds on her blackberry and she said it costs just around RM700. Okay I can't stand the word "just" dear. But I don't like her design much like her sister's. Okay, Nadia is crazy. She could just stand eating swiss choc coated biscuits and a bread for d whole day. Diet meh. But she got wut she wanted darl. And her fiance is cute.

Okay, Malaysia already missed Thomas. Like I said to mama, dont waste ur time watching. Baik pegi tahlil uncle. Dapat pahala. And dpt aku tgok Lambo Faliq. Oh wait, Nadia just sold her Hummer =(((((...Mcm mana nk dance and pose ala2 PCD kat jeep. LOL.

Btw, Nina told me she asked aunty and Nadia already for the job but she didnt even get the feedback yet. I was wondering, "ape susah u mntak je la kat abg Nasa" I was about to tell but nevermind lah, dulu aku nak the job pon aku mnta sndiri, buat resume siap. Text je Nasa and mntak2 ckit dapatlah. Even for a month pon jadila jnji dpt salary kan. So, I think I just let her be independent la. Previously she depended on me je. Sama2 masuk kerja but this time aku ada short course so bon voyage. Omg, I miss the work place, Madame pon ade jmpa mama and asked bila Nurul nk masuk keje lg. Just now I met all the staff. X sangka they all still rmmber me =)...

Perut pon dah kenyang. Hati pon senang. Another one day in KL. Ahhhhhhh xmaw blik Penang!

2010-05-13T17:53:00.002+08:00

We were all young and stupid once, I just choose to extend my period of stupidity. Yes, indeed my option gives me failure big time.

It's been a heck of a run this semester, it almost killed me and I, constantly thank my joy ride subjects that kept me through the entire ordeal. I never liked early year semesters, the short period of time, the mind boggling subjects and somehow piles of assignments that ended me up whistling and indeed ignoring em completely. Kasihan assignment pergi cari custody cepat! I don't really hate it, i just have a slight disliking of it. Common?

Still, the semester has reminded me a lot of stuff, good memories of past. Like how much effing easier it was to deal with life and all its mysteries last semester. Juggling killer papers and trying to manage precious time. It also reminded me of the great guilty pleasures in life I constantly abuse too much.

I was running through some of my school pictures when I came across one that reminded me of a time in my life when I wasnt that much pressured; Hidup pakai kain kafan putih dan biru ke sekolah. Hidup gila position and votes di sekolah. Hidup belajar. rehat. balik. tuition. hangout. Hidup "hu" indeed "ha" everyday di sekolah.

Oh, life then was a bliss, I didnt had much care in life but still made it through. I never felt the pressure of conforming the idea of how should I be and what should I be. I missed those days, where I could just go on living my life without sheer paranoia breathing behind your neck. But this is how growing up feels like.

What more, I know I won't have those days back.

But anyhow, I've learnt something in life, never to forfeit the game unless you are not trying. Never be deprived of the game unless the game stops you naturally. If it stops, don't come to a halt, move forward, channel another way or try the same way. Try but this time, harder.

Omagad, I might continue after watching Adamaya. (typical but amaze me) =)

unpack and repack

2010-05-12T21:23:00.005+08:00

HEY YOU!
YES YOU!
YOUR BLOG ISNT NICE!
DUH!

yes..yes..nowadays i feel like i just need to keep things simple. But I fink this is too simple. No doubt. Oh well, just let it be because i'm getting tired of picking templates. Just keep things simple like my friend Jesseekkah did.

Anyway, tomorrow i couldn't go anywhere the minute i wake up until my brother come back from school. Oh wait, my parents are out and brother goes to school and i'm home alone so what am i gonna do. But anyway,i have to pick him up and bring him to secret for banana choc cake and some groceries shopping. The grocery shopping is the laziest part.

OMG, eryn just texted me to hang out. Aku tersangat nk kuar ngn diorg2 semua! O dear, 2moro is already thursday and I have to baby sit my brother, then friday tahlil arwah uncle, saturday to melaka meeting with an interior designer and finally sunday! Penang! oh mengapakah. Dahla penang jauh dari membe mcm mana la...xpe2 berkorban. korban. dapat pahala. amin.

Ehhem. Positive thinking is really healthy for you to handle yourself from stress. Yes. Positive thinking makes you forget that u r going to be in penang for a month while some other friends in kl enjoying their sweetest moments of holiday. weehoo. Wait. Think postive.

Ah tak boleh. Sebb minggu pertama cuti minggu warm up. then next week baru dpt plan ke sana sini. Ahh melepas. Xpe. Just do it.

Apelah sebenarnya aku fikirkan. 4 days to go. Baru buka kasut dah kena pakai semula. Hukhuk.

gyrate..gyrate girls!!

2010-05-12T17:45:00.000+08:00

Siapa sbnrnya aku?

2010-05-11T20:05:00.002+08:00

well suddenly i'm feeling like writing in malay. ok,ok.

Dear diary, (diariku?) lol sounds weird but nvm, ok i'll start.

Kenapa tibe2 aku rase nk tulis dlm bm? sb aku rase nk luahkan sesuatu. Luahkan dalam bahasa lah bru rasa feel sikit. oops. terojak. ala biala rojak xde sape pon nk cek kan. Anyway, aku tulis ni untuk diri sendiri, ape yang aku rasa dan ape yang terbuku dlm hati ni. Siapa2 yang terbaca atau ape yang mereka fikirkan bukanlah tanggungjawab aku, hoho, ini sbb hati org aku tak perlu jaga. Mereka ada hak nak fikir dan aku rasa itu x berdosa.

Firsly, aku nak minta maaf dan aku telahpun minta maaf pada dia. Sebab aku xde niat apa2 pon nk jd heartbreaker ke or wutsoever. Aku mengaku aku sgtlah pengecut nak berdepan dgn dia untuk decide ape yang aku nak. Aku tahu ape yang aku nak tapi the guilt has been a boundary for a long time la syg. Aku sepatutnya bagi jawapan yang betul tapi demi menjaga hati dan masa tu pon perasaan aku x tahu kat mana aku kata aku terima. Aku gembira berkawan dgn dia dan aku janji sudah aku xkn tinggalkan dia. X salahkan kalau sebagai kawan x tinggalkan dia? but I think you deserve a better one. Tell me macam mana aku nak berterus terang. Hmm. Anyway, aku x suka sesiapa pon lagi. Dlm hati ni belum ada sesiapa lagi. I know I have to tell u at first place but it was too late. Aku berharap dia masih boleh berkawan lagi w/o any hatred.

Aku tak tahu apa yang dah jadi ngn perasaan aku ni sbnrnya. Sejak aku break up last semester dgn org yang aku sayang hati aku time tu la paling hancur. Sbb time tu aku dah belajar sayang kat seseorang bukan macam sebelum2 tuh aku couple. Mostly aku main2 ja tp yang ni walaupun muka x sekacak Chuck Bass badan x setough Chris Evans aku sayang dia sgt2 time tu. Tapi bila dia tinggalkan aku, hati aku hancur. Time tu aku agak loser la sbb everyday air mata, air mata, air mata. Tapi dia kata better macam ni. Lama2 aku terima jela apa yg dia nak. Sbb maybe aku bukanla macam yang dia nak kan. Kalau nak ditanyakan pada hati, dalam, dalam lubuk hati ni aku mmg ada syg kat dia lagi dan rindu bila tgok dia. Aku kuatkan diri sbb maybe tak nak kena lagi kot(here comes my ego).

Selepas tu adela macam pengganti. Time aku susah, paling susah time lapar la (jujur weh). Aku pon xde kenderaan time tu (alhamdulillah la kalau kereta lembu pon xpe) tp ni satu bnde pon aku xde nak bwk aku keluar kondo tu cari makan kecuali kaki tp malas la nk jalan. Diala yang bantu aku. Time aku bosan pon dia isi masa aku. Dia marah aku bila aku keluar ngn kawan2 lelaki lain. Itulah aku suka sbb time tu aku igt dia btol2 syg aku sbb tu la dia marah. But then aku dapat tahu yang time tu dia tgh couple ngn gf dia ni. Aku tahulah, wanita ni budak hotel dan skrg dah pon ke shah alam. Dan byk lagi aku tertipu sbnrnya. Dan sebenarnya...ha lagu yuna pon dah keluar....And aku agak tergelak la skrg sbb dia berjaya buat aku sayang kat dia sdgkan dia buat aku mcm barbie doll pakai buang pulak dah. Alamak aih ada pulak sama class kan. Mata and telinga aku x dptla nak tukar frekuensi ke radio lain time kelas tu. Sbb frekuensi tersekat kat suara dia je tiap2 kelas. Aku berjaya mengharungi masa2 kelas itu. Syabas.

Ok, nila masa panjang aku single tapi x mingle. Sejak aku dapat kereta. Kereta tu la boyfriend aku. Diala yang bwk aku makan, minum, shopping, main (main kat arcade sunway oh), makan (makan lagi), ha yang paling penting belajar (parking kat uitm kira belajar lah tu). Dan aku rasa selesa keluar ngn kawan2 perempuan. Eventho ada masa rasa left out sbb diorg kadang2 keluar ngn bf diorg tapi aku x kisah. Aku still happy. Kadang2 aku rasa hati aku agak kering dan macam kejam sbb ade yang mula2 kawan then suddenly after first date aku rasa malas nk layan dah. Msg pon aku x reply, call pon aku x angkat. Memang, habit aku suka letak phone merata bila free je aku tgok hp and aku la makhluk paling x suka kat charger hp. paham2 jela. Aku try jugak xnk buat lagi perangai macam tu tapi makin lama makin menjadi. Lepas sorg sorg hilang perasaan aku dkt diorg. Bukan sbb aku terpikat kat org lain ke apa. Tapi bila diorg stat sebut 'sayang' 'suka' and keluar la sweet words aku rasa x suka. Apalah penyakit aku ni. Tapi aku dah tanya kat senior2 soal hati ni diorg kata maybe aku x sedia nak bercinta kot. (mak aih jiwang oh).

Aku ni mmg suka ikutkan hati. Mana betol? Ikot hati ke ikot otak? Aku rasa hati kot. Sebab kalau otak; otak ada dua bahagian so dua2 fikir berbeza2. (aku ngok bio so firasat agak x btol). Tapi kalau hati sbnrnya emosi. Ah dua2 xley pakai la. Ikot jela tangan dgn kaki lagi baik.

Ok kali ni mmg panjang la ape aku nak tulis. Biarla yang penting aku sorg ja yang suka baca. Next up subtopik baru; karma. Aku mmg dari dulu percaya kat karma. Sbb aku pon pernah tgok org kena dan aku pon kena. Macam kau gelakkan org jatuh tangga last2 tangga tu jatuh atas kau. Yang penting janganlah kita buat jahat kat org or sakiti org sbb nnti kena kat kita balik. Kata2 dituju kat diri sndiri dan mereka2 yang boleh terima kata2 ini. Kadang2 kita x sedar kita buat salah tapi karma tu lah yang sedarkan kita. Siapa kata karma tu jahat je, karma pon ade yang baik. So nak karma baik buatla byk bnda baik. Kalau xnk sangat degil la kata org, jadi neutral jela. Buat blur je. Nnti org buat blur balik kat kita. So neutral pon jadik.

So semester lepas aku berjaya senyum kat semua org. Yang pernah aku x suka pon aku senyum dan berbaik. Tak kisahla apa yang diorg fikir aku senyum si-nis ke si-hit ke si-sin ke si-apelagikonakrasa janji aku senyum ikhlas oh. Tapi ada yang tarik muka dan buat muka bengis. Ha yang tu aku kasi gear neutral. So xdela kena cakar. Tapi sem lepas aku banyak buat ayat; ha biar jela. Aku pon xtaw ape yang aku cuba sampaikan. Makna tersurattersirat bergantung.

Pada suatu hari, ha ni aku ada cerita teladan. In the far far away land. Ada la kembar shrek ni (ni watak paling handsome aku nak bagi), dia kata dia suka aku, puji lah sampai ke langit puji dia tapi halamak tekantoi pulak yang dia ada gf. Padanlah muka kau. Sebab aku mmg dari mula xde perasaan ngn kau sbb baru2 nk kawan puji dah tahap melangit membumi last2 mengubur semua pujian kau. Such a sweet talker. Agak typical ayat tu. Tapi nak gak aku sebut TYPICAL TYPICAL TYPICAL!.

Konklusinya, aku xnk la mana2 yang lebih dari kawan. Sudahlah. Masalah aku yang first tu aku nak selesaikan dulu dgn cara yang tenang. Kamilah yang tenang tp kalau kawan dia x tenang aku nak buat macam mana.Sbb time tu lagu Zee Avi dah pon keluar.

Okeh, aku memang mula2 serabut dengan pelajaran aku tapi aku serah jela kat takdir. Aku pon bukan pandai sgt, insyaallah aku berjaya lah dalam hidup. Aku dah cuba, cuba, cuba time ni lagu Faizal Tahir pon dah keluar.

Oh lagi satu alangkah indahnya klw dapat suami macam Adam (adamaya) sgt baik sgt, sangat sangat lah (mama aku pon suka). Bini dia jela yang slacker. Xpela janji Amani tu comel. Sebab dia ngan bapak dia comel. Haha dah2 ngarut sudah.

2010-05-03T15:09:00.001+08:00

My fav movie besides "the notebook" is 500 days of summer...watch it like i have to wear bras everyday.

2010-05-03T15:07:00.000+08:00

2010-05-03T15:01:00.003+08:00

"I found out what the secret to life is--friends. Best friends."-Fried Green Tomatoes

2010-05-03T14:52:00.000+08:00

"Life and death, energy and peace. If I stop today it was still worth it. Even the terrible mistakes that I made and would have unmade if I could. The pains that have burned me and scarred my soul, it was worth it, for having been allowed to walk where I've walked, which was to hell on earth, heaven on earth, back again, into, under, far in between, through it, and above." - gia

i just prattle

2010-04-01T11:56:00.006+08:00

Everyday to me akin a fairy-tale. Of the sickening smiles out of sudden alone, of the chuckles and snorts while on the nett, of the Miley song-"cant wait to see you again" playing in mind and of the "ohh i have to bounce, someone is waiting for me on the line" things are coming again.

Well i feel culpable yet contended to tell the story. So much has happened along the way. From the first day he played the guitar; "when you say nothing at all" at the beach, then; "hey i get u lunch and i'll wait for u, jz come.", then the latest one; "i'm gonna miss u while i'm away this weekend"- i just hope i have the money and can follow the trip too. Anyway, he's a heartthrobe. Sweetest thing on earth.

I have never really had to do much to reciprocate. Maybe i found the right one. This one really bothers about my feelings. All i need is now to know him better.

Oh bother, there are the zits again. One on forehead and the most peculiar one is on the cheek. Fak. St. Ive u r too pricey nowadays or I'm getting meagre or both.

some cliff notes to stick on your forehead

2010-03-23T14:51:00.003+08:00

"it's my favorite song they're gonna play and I cannot text you while i was handling the wheels, eh?"

"I cldn't hide and you are giving me headaches. I don't want to say the magic word "please" because I don't want to be pleasant to you. I should have been one but you have forced me to act so. No one is forgiven and no one is forgotten. I'm not a childish kind of person or yet a stubborn one although sometimes i could be it. I could be normal for you to see but not as normal as you used to know me. You are really making me angry although I shouldn't have to. So back off. Stop contacting me will ya? It's history. And I don't learn history twice."

-"Another word, you made me say this; I owed you nothing. And I don't need a friend that bugs me all the time. Chances were given to be my normal friend. But you act so desperately, and kau x mampu org lain baik dengan aku mcm mana aku nk befriend dgn kaw. Oh hey u made people think i'm so bad. How cld I forgive that."

-"god, this is useless and I'm wasting my freaking time talking about you and crap. So, back off. Hide your face when you see me. Do me that favour. That's the least you can do"

-"i never regret in my life after one break up in relationship and i'll never be back to people who let me down or people that i dump"

-"i believe there's only one chance in every single thing in life"

hey guitar boy

2010-03-23T10:48:00.006+08:00

Hair. Checked.
Face. Checked.
Head to toe. Pfft.

I hold my breath.
I look around, as if for a familiar face, but really what I'm scanning for, is his face.
I search and scan, then finally concede to the fact that I would have to bottle my excitement.
Just for a while.

"Hey! Look who I see!"

I move around, and try ambitiously to contain my delight.
It's him!

Speak woman, I urge myself to talk.
Nothing.

recently i kinda lost my memory

2010-02-26T11:28:00.002+08:00

-due to backstage passes I'm pushing myself to "big jam"...(lazy oledi going to such event)

-roro's bday is on saturday night in penang. bring eggs ewww

-date wif "ehhem" at bagan. (we just have something in common not that being a special one)

-i have like 3 more papers to finnito and gonna celebr8 it later. amirul's pizza parlour maybe...

-rugby game at USM on Sunday. bringing my cheer team (hollah)

damnnit! I thought I was good in ele290 cuz i have done my quizes greatly and concentrated in class but after a week and so, I found out I'm the dumbest thing on earth. I couldn't even remember the use of each formulas like to find the inductance for instance. Kena marah dgn baiyah again and again not to mention if i see Pn. Sharifah...

"these are good words!"

2010-02-24T11:25:00.000+08:00

"a gazillion years back,i would've believed that men were naturally better and more significant than women. but i guess the table is turning. some things just realy annoy me. like for instance a husband telling his wife to fully cover herself in an over-the-top way, and in exchange he knocks himself out by enjoying looking at other women in the most... See More disgusting way. that shows how little respect some men have for women and what hypocrit's they are. it just doesnt seem right and its unfair to women." Aishah Mohamed Amin

getting in the way

2010-02-24T10:40:00.002+08:00

sooo long i havent write on my blog. Realizing there are lots of thoughts recently making me wanna write again. Lately, ive been through so many things..myself couldn't judge that i'm happy or not, but

- relieve because I'm nice to everybody, and I smile to everybody wthout being a "pretend-bitch"

-i'm in control of myself. I don't need to depend on anybody anymore here.

-i made lots of nice friends. They are good so far and I have realized too the one that I dislike previously is actually nice too.

but some things did come up making me feel uncomfy to stay in my shoes;

-weird, for this moment of time, I don't need any special person. I just want to be friends with everybody and please i'm not making anyone to like me more than friends. I'm just being nice to everybody.

-i just need a book with "how to lose a guy" title stuck on it.

-i just feel the need to get rid of my handphone but couldnt do it. still have priorities.

-nobody wins my heart right now.

-i'm confuse with some guys who are interested with ppl with common gender. Pls lah, so many pretty girls around.

-i hate texting. Just call me the moment u need me. But if I don't pick up that means I'm not in the current mood to talk. (that's my habit nowadays, so if anybody nk order tandoori ka, nasi kandaq ka while i'm out pls do call me don't text cuz i wldnt notice my phone).

and there are some things constantly making me happy;

-i love my FROGHINI. it flies, it jumps crayzily.

-i'm glad, im glad, and i'm glad

2010-01-19T23:32:00.001+08:00

"The more I learn to care for you, the more we drift apart, why can't I free your doubtful mind and melt your cold cold heart"-Norah Jones

They never die..

2010-01-19T19:54:00.004+08:00

Bila la nak hujan? should there be a team of frogs singing ong ong of rihanna's song, umbrella just to have even a tear drop of rain. god. I miss rain. I just love the sound of it. It is so comforting and it is understood if I say it makes me feel sleepy too. I just want to hear the sound of the rain and think about the memories that's left behind. With my friends eversince I was a kid. About people who're already gone.

My late best friend, Muaz who has passed away due to heart attack in mrsm last 3 years. The story was a tragic one. He never got a heart attack before. But due to the sight of a suicide scene he witnessed himself alone made it the most tragic thing ever happened to him. He saw one of the cafeteria worker hung himself in the cafe. It was a shocking cause of death. But like people said ajal di tangan tuhan kan. He's lucky to die in young age. Dosa x banyak lagi.
His parents are my family friends eversince we stayed in Brunei. I'm thinking of uploading our picture together sitting in strollers side by side. Mine was pink and his was blue. We were both bald that time tho. He was a bright student and very alim too.

And the other friend of mine, his family stays next door in KL, he's David Cheah, same age. We went to tuition since form 1 together but he died later after PMR due to brain cancer. I remember sitting next to him in class and offered him a bubble yum and I could see his skin closely and aghast. His skin was like the ground during the draught. He always refused my bubble yum offers and I always wondered why. Last time I saw him was before I went for holiday in US and I got the news of him already gone after I got back. =(

Then, the other best friend of mine, Lenny Nur Jahan, she's still here but her mom, Auntie Rose who's my mom's bestfriend eversince in Pahang died due to stroke. My mom was the first Lenny hugged during the funeral. And it was so sad.

They are all my friends although they are gone. Many memories have left and they were indeed memorable. I'm writing this to show that I never forget them forever in life.

all hail yaya

2010-01-18T14:04:00.004+08:00

i've been too lazy to write on my blog as i think some ppl might read wut crap i'll write in..however something quite humiliating just happened this morning but at the end of it i found that it's quite a good laugh we're having since we need to release the sleepy mood...wut just happened was(to ppl who havent read my stat in fb) i accidentally tersepak my slipper or flip flop towards my lecturer while she was talking in front...fortunately she saw it as an accident not as a sign for her to end the class..fiuhhh..yep, the class did notice and hell they laugh at wut happened..ape lagi act cool girl I laugh with them too and said sorry..another sigh...

anyway I just found out that there's someone here just arrived in Penang that Ive known for years.. Obviously she's a girl. She really sounds like she needs a help. But since I've learnt that don't trust ppl even ur besties easily nowadays I'm being more careful now..Maybe I should just meet her and listen to her problem. But I couldn't help. Yes I'm selfish. I don't sell crab for god sake. I wouldn't help her because I smell something fishy around like a trap maybe, or somebody else is watching us. (it's all about fishy fishy fish).

Anyway, this semester I'm not gonna let myself being a door mat, a backstabbing knife or a frying pan (i just add it up). Whoever it is, I'm just being careful with them and I would cross out whoever even a friend of mine out of my life eg;( like Jennifer Check says :cross Needy) in Jennifer's Body as u can recall. I'ld cross them out without any regrets because I believe friends do come and go either they die or just gone with the wind. Only some ppl I could trust stay and they are the ppl I would respect my whole life. So this is it. I don't bother if ppl are being jell-o or x puas hati with me. But for the past I've learnt so much and my apology.

counting crows (days)-not the band

2010-01-06T11:58:00.004+08:00

Howdy, though I've settled down at a right place, I'm still effing counting days patiently. It's amazing to see smiles and laughter around me that make my days go easy peasy. 2 days has gone with joy as I found out all my lecturers are easy going and full of jokes. So no more tense for mechanical engineering.

Yeah, yesterday after class, me and my amazing friends aka the condorians ate out for dinner. Yup, they promised me they won't eat long and will send me back early. Then, too bad I can't follow them to see Sherlock Holmes (dammnnnnnitt) later in the evening. Okay I never regretted for that. I can see it whenever I want guys.

So I went back early and the girls who waited for my arrival last night applauded me as I didn't go out past my bedtime (like usual). Bravo for resolutions. I admit I never did resolutions before. This is my first time. And it's going so well.